Not long ago, my husband and I went through a wave of change in our network of friends. Five families we were close to moved away all in the same time frame. It wasn’t long before we noticed that God was taking us through a season of having to depend solely on Him.
There was another situation when I was uninvited from a get-together. A friend felt I’d feel more comfortable not attending this particular event with her friends. I trusted she was right but was tempted to doubt God. He reminded me of His faithfulness and that I wasn’t alone even when it felt a little unwelcoming and awkward.
The truth is that God created us to know others and be known by others no matter our age. We also have a deep longing to be loved by others. Perhaps you know the feeling of:
- Sitting in a sterile room hearing only the hum of the air conditioner
- Attending an event with hundreds of people not knowing anyone
- Scrolling through your friends’ highlight reels of their Disneyworld vacation while you’re sitting on the couch
- Reaching out to someone but there’s no reciprocation
- Not being satisfied with the often shallowness of social media and needing face-to-face fellowship with a friend
- Requesting, “Table for one please,” at a restaurant you love
In God’s word and prayer, I’ve found His comfort and I’m reminded that He is with me.
He’s my source of satisfaction and joy. He’s been teaching me truths about contentment that I would’ve never known otherwise. Not just with my circumstances, but contentment in my relationship with Him.
I’ve been asking myself these hard questions: Is He truly enough? At the end of my life, when I will meet Jesus face-to-face, is He all I nee, and do I live like it here on earth?
I’m also learning what it means to be intentional and invite others instead of waiting to be invited. I’m able to teach these life lessons to my kids too. Jesus pursues us every day, am I pursuing others with His love and life-changing gospel?
I’m still waiting on prayers to be answered but I’ve found myself anticipating in this time to keep learning more about God, His character, and love for me. In the waiting, Jesus is showing me new depths of how He felt when He walked this earth among people who didn’t always understand, accept, or include Him. He experienced intense periods of loneliness too.
In her new song “You Say,” Lauren Daigle writes,
You say I am loved when I can’t feel a thing
You say I am strong when I think I am weak
You say I am held when I am falling short
When I don’t belong, oh You say I am Yours
And I believe, oh I believe
What You say of me
I believe what God says of me. If I will only live it.
That I am His. And His love is enough in times of loneliness and in times of deep companionship and community.
Do you believe it too?
Samantha Krieger is a pastor’s wife, mother to four, and writer in rural Colorado. She’s the author of Quiet Time: A 30-day Devotional Retreat for Moms in the Trenches. To read more from Samantha, visit her blog: www.samanthakrieger.com